Wow... my first post on my blog... this is sort of exciting... well... first of let me tell you the good things first... well... fasting month is coming to an end which is good (can finally eat in public again XD) and that means Hari Raya is coming and that spells "Duit Raya"!!! I think the best thing to look forward to is that I can see all my relatives. And the prom is coming soon and I'm pretty excited about it, and I cannot wait for it, that is the only time I can dress to impress. I also decided to stricken my diet cause of some reasons which I'll explain later. Well thats the good news for today.
Now coming to the bad news. Well... my heart has been hurting again... it hurts all the time... but no one in my family believes me... and thats the part which hurts me the most I guess... had to breakfast earlier today cause of it... good thing my mum might want me to go for another check up soon... But the thing which depresses me the most is that... well... I don't think I belong in this family... You see... I am always the victim of all their pranks... I get hit from behind from my dad and sisters... and I get scolded even on days which I am sick... they say my diet isn't working and I will never look good... at one time my dad called me "Stupid"... the tease me with girls which I look as friends only... and... well... I feel that my family isn't the right place for me to be in right now... and I was thinking when I was older and have a good job, I want to divorce from my dad and sister... (My mums still cool by the way)... I've been hurt by them too much already... and I cant take it anymore... haven't I suffered enough?...
This part of the blog I am dedicating to my friends... You all are the only people that keep me sane and keeping me from doing stupid things... and I want to thank you... for all that you did for me and how much kindness you showed me... But out of all of you... there is one person... who actually showed me... and changed me for life... and showed me how family... should really stick together... but he isn't a friend... he is something better than that... he is my cousin... and even though in one point in our lives we didn't see each other for years... but... when we met again... we were never close... but... later in life... you showed me how much a family must stick together... and I could always feel you supporting me from afar... and I want to really thank you for that... and one day I hope to repay your kindness and wisdom in whatever way I can... cause you showed me... what a true family really is... and I don't know what would have happen if you didn't come and help me when I needed someone to talk to... I thank you... for everything... *wipes tears*
Well... thats all for tonight and i really needed to get if of my chest... till next time... goodnight...
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