The New Year and the new beginning...

Well... 2007 is coming to an end... but the new year is coming... I'm actually pretty excited that the new year is coming, cause it doesn't just mean that more new faces in college, but it is also a good way to start anew. I've made many mistakes in the past, but I'm going to look towards my future, cause I know thats where I'm going to end up anyway. To all those I hurt this year, I am deeply sorry, but I hope that there isn't anymore hardship between us and I hope to see what the future has in store for me... and I'm not afraid of a challenge lol.

PS: I'm currently in the process of making my Holiday detail and should be up within the week so stay tune all!! Jia Ne

Thailand

Well tomorrow me and my family are going to Thailand and I'm not excited as my lil sister. Maybe it's because we go there too often? yea I think it might be. Every year its the same thing, we go there and we go to the beach and stuff, then we go shopping and then we go eat. Kinda boring to me actually. We don't go anywhere new and its very boring visiting the same place more then once you know. *sigh* oh well, just going to have to bear with it till I come back... hope its better then last year

I'm officially 19

Yup, like the titles says, I am officially 19 as of today, and the best part of today is, my exams are over and now I'm on my end of the year holiday!! Would like to tank everyone who wished me today and to Madam Mary (my lecturer) for giving me my first birthday present of the day. Later I am going out with my dad and siblings to a Japanese Restaurant (my favorite lol) and then im going to my best friends hows to celebrate with her. Oh and the Birthday Party is going to be on this Friday and I'll blog about it after Friday is over. Till next time readers, ciao

Prom Night (Coming soon)

I know I promised the prom photos and what we did and stuff but been quite busy for the mean time and i didnt have time to upload them T.T dont worry ill try and do it by tonite

The Good and the Bad

Well there has been a lot of things on my mind at the moment due to the mid-term, but now that its over I can finally relax... sort of... there are some good things and bad things that happened lately and I'll list them down for you in a moment. Hmm... I think I'll start with the good;

Good:
1. Managed to get enough sleep, and it is a bit easier to sleep at night
2. Mid-Term is over!!
3. I am slowly regaining my emotion to love again
4. Going to talk to my cousin in Osaka to discuss my future there

well those are the good things this week. Now let me list down the bad;

Bad:
1. One couple from my prom table (not naming who) called me tonight saying that she can't make it cause of some emergency with the boy friends family or something...
2. Been having a lot of heart pain lately and I don't think its heart burn
3. Need to find new people for my table and the prom is this Friday!!!!
4. Have to do my assignments (I'm lazy btw, but yet I can still do good)
5. Been sick frequently

well thats what is good and bad so far... if there is more by Sunday i might edit this post... o well... we are just going to have to see...

Exams and Life

Well... my exam is in 9hours and counting from now till I start creating my program... Oh well... I'm good at designing the interface but I really bad at writing the program... Oh well... better try right? The paper which I think I'm more worries about is C Programming... Need to study hard on that one... Since I really sux in that...

Well... Nothing much happened this couple of days... just that I feel a bit confused with my feelings... and emotions... they are lost, confused, lonely, and sad... but I have to bare with them for now... cause if I don't I might be in serious trouble... wouldn't be able to concentrate well...

So far life has been going ok... nothing new happened... besides my exam of course... but that practically it... nothing juicy and interesting happened... which is pretty odd since usually strange things do happen to me... well the future is a mysterious and we have to see what it holds for us... but I hope that I'll see it soon...

Zen

Another Video

Thought I'd try again to see if I can put a video in, here it is;

Mihimaru GT - Punkish

A Strange Dream...

Last night I had a very weird dream... usually I don't dream much but when I do they aren't always very strange... But last nights dream made me a little... well... confused after I woke up... You see in my dream I was at this sort of picnic with 2 of my college friends... and the thing was we looked a bit... well different... some of us lost weight... got a bit taller... and so on so forth... but... that wasn't all... I met this girl there... I know it sounds like every other guys dream... having a beautiful girl and fantasizing about it... but it wasn't like any other... the girl was strangely beautiful... fair skin... short hair... basically everything I ever wanted in a girl... and what shocked me the most was that we were dating and from what I remember in the conversation, we were dating for awhile now...

Later in my dream... I found out that my "girlfriend" mysteriously passed away and no one new the cause of it... I was at the funeral of the girl and saw as her coffin was lowered slowly into the earth... My friends as they are tried to cheer me up... took me out to have fun or just sit down in a restaurant to have dinner... but nothing cheered me up...

A few days later... I was walking down the sidewalk thinking how miserable I was... without her... when suddenly as I looked up I saw a girl who looked exactly like my "girlfriend" walking slowly but mysteriously into an abandoned building... I quickly ran after her... most of the time I could only catch a glimpse of her as she turned into different corners of the building... and up staircases... I followed her as fast as I could... but she was too fast for me... soon after turning one corner... I can to a dead end... and she was no where to be found... I walked towards the end of the wall and sat there crying... and I could feel how much pain... loneliness... and how much sadness he felt after the lost of his loved one... soon after... my entire vision of that moment went blank... and I slowly got out of bed... and yet... I could still feel the emotions of the guy in my dreams...

Guess there is a hidden meaning in this dream... It could mean I really wish to have a long term relationship... and I am afraid to lose the one I love... I'm not sure... but I'm sure I'll figure it out...

I Thought I might try and Upload to see if it works, I recommend that you turn off my music on the right side of this page under my profile so that you can listen to this video better, if this work I might be releasing one Music Video once a week.

First Day of Raya

Well the first day of raya is over... and let me tell you it was all good, met the family, got some cash (yay!! XD) and had good control over my food intake (I know I shouldn't be dieting during a holiday, but hey, I want to have a good body :p)

First we went to my fathers side of the family and visited my aunt and uncles and also some of my cousins, it was ok I guess, I was quite the whole day though, nothing much to say to the rest of my family today, except "Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir and Batin" XD

Then later we went to my mothers side of the family for the annual open house (Gary, Hui Wen and Dairus, Sorry was late!! :P) and some surprise visits from some of my other family friends, such as David, been awhile since I last saw him.

Well that was the first day of Raya, cant wait to see whats in store for me tomorrow, till then night all

End of fasting...

well fasting has officially ended, and now comes the best part of fasting, Duit Raya which comes tomorrow lol. Still very surprised that Raya came this fast... I mean it feels like only yesterday that Raya started... Well guess I've been so busy that I didn't realize the time fly so fast...

Well lets get down to business, I'm going to tell you what I'm going to try to do with this blog and what updates I'm going to do to it. Here is a list on things I need to do to make this blog the best one I have ever made:

• Create a Custom Background
• Get a nice profile picture (even though all my cat pictures are cute :P)
• Add nice songs to the Blog making it not so bored to view
• Details of event
• My personal life (Duh, its a blog after all XD)
• and other

Well I'll get started straight after raya and I cannot wait to do it (^_^). Well going to my grandmas place in a bit so i guess thats all for today, till then people, Jia Ne

Nearing the end...

Wow... my first post on my blog... this is sort of exciting... well... first of let me tell you the good things first... well... fasting month is coming to an end which is good (can finally eat in public again XD) and that means Hari Raya is coming and that spells "Duit Raya"!!! I think the best thing to look forward to is that I can see all my relatives. And the prom is coming soon and I'm pretty excited about it, and I cannot wait for it, that is the only time I can dress to impress. I also decided to stricken my diet cause of some reasons which I'll explain later. Well thats the good news for today.

Now coming to the bad news. Well... my heart has been hurting again... it hurts all the time... but no one in my family believes me... and thats the part which hurts me the most I guess... had to breakfast earlier today cause of it... good thing my mum might want me to go for another check up soon... But the thing which depresses me the most is that... well... I don't think I belong in this family... You see... I am always the victim of all their pranks... I get hit from behind from my dad and sisters... and I get scolded even on days which I am sick... they say my diet isn't working and I will never look good... at one time my dad called me "Stupid"... the tease me with girls which I look as friends only... and... well... I feel that my family isn't the right place for me to be in right now... and I was thinking when I was older and have a good job, I want to divorce from my dad and sister... (My mums still cool by the way)... I've been hurt by them too much already... and I cant take it anymore... haven't I suffered enough?...

This part of the blog I am dedicating to my friends... You all are the only people that keep me sane and keeping me from doing stupid things... and I want to thank you... for all that you did for me and how much kindness you showed me... But out of all of you... there is one person... who actually showed me... and changed me for life... and showed me how family... should really stick together... but he isn't a friend... he is something better than that... he is my cousin... and even though in one point in our lives we didn't see each other for years... but... when we met again... we were never close... but... later in life... you showed me how much a family must stick together... and I could always feel you supporting me from afar... and I want to really thank you for that... and one day I hope to repay your kindness and wisdom in whatever way I can... cause you showed me... what a true family really is... and I don't know what would have happen if you didn't come and help me when I needed someone to talk to... I thank you... for everything... *wipes tears*

Well... thats all for tonight and i really needed to get if of my chest... till next time... goodnight...

Welcome to the new Blog!

Well, I moved my account from Livejournal.com due to that I couldn't do much with it (especially with the comments) but now I hope that this one is more successful then my previous blog and now I can receive comments (YAY!! XD) hope you guys like it. Till then ciao!